Today I am sent to Rockdale site where all staffs are on leave, only Stacey, Regional manager's PA and Adam, our psychologist accompanying with me. We, three poor blokes will have to spend a boring day here without appt arranged and VP coming. Losing chance of seeing our big boss Karen and Ben who paln to visit our new office at Ashfield, I feel a bit regret for looking forward to seeing what looks like our CEO, but Michael wrecking my tiny wish. Damn it! Okay, let me enjoy one-day personal space creation again even if some clients've already come and begin doing job search. Doesn't matter. keep hitting and ignoring any disruption.

 

My god, get to stop and required to train a casual staff now, but I just finish my probationary a month ago. It will trash my lovely plan to edit my personal website. Bloody Michael.

It should be a sunny day but its beated by bad news that Jeremy is leaving for his good caree future. Im a emotional girl and can't help sheding tears though I've known him only four months. It's really a sad reality that we have to let go of some who have found greener pasture. It's beyond our control. But what makes it even more sad is the thought of one part of a great team is leaving and makes a lot of difference.

 

Hi, party animal, the best thing I can do is to wish you all the best of luck.  Should we have a drink not for farewell but for alliance in same tastes on drink or entertainment. Anyway, we can meet as long as we demand to sip, hug?

 

Now I get to stop typing by constant interruption of incoming call.

Robbie is whispering and grumbling with Jen but I can guess for turning on the music. Why? Since Kate got back from her perfect honey moon, we have been busy or at least we are acting to get oursleves buried in lots of jobs even rushing to take peper printed out. Laugh out loud disappears and dirty words can't be heard around. We are not like slow coach or 'dragging u ass' any more when we are working cuz Kate is unlikely turns her blind eyes. In front of our majesty, every one looks like poppet and tries doing as good as possible. Actually we can also do very well even if we work listening music or have a fun. See, we won at Southern Region and were awarded Batman during manager wasn't on boat. 

 

This morning Michael came and had a dance in Batman garment for us.  Very funny! Unfortunately I can't upload the pic otherwise you can have a look and appreciate what looks Michael in different style. 

 

Hi, guys, u did very well, how comes?

每天工作中接触的客人都是在政府领钱的人,他们都是靠着我们纳税人生活，所以我们要帮助他们找工作。可见，我每天接触的都是澳洲社会不能说最底层起码是低下层人。他们的素质不用想就能猜到，但我不怕，因为这是极好的和人打交道的机会。只要我对他们友好，他们也是通情达理的，虽然他们很不情愿去找工作。

 

这些人中有些是中国人，哎，一些人很让我失望。有些年轻的移民虽然没领政府救济，但我们也可以为他们提供服务，主要是facility not personal consultant.因为他们有能力自己找，当我把我们所能做的告诉他们后，很多刚毕业的学生居然跟我喊，“我们是PR,政府为什么不管？我们也是纳税人！我要投诉你们！”哎，丢人，我为自己和他们是一个国家来的丢人，真不懂事。PR，算什么，也就是这些留学的中国人这么叫，老外不明白什么是PR，只知道Permanent Resident.如果是我的那些鬼佬同事，早就说，“I don't understand ur English." 好，你既然不懂，我给你解释一下，天啊！你还不懂，还跟我嚷嚷，我只好说，”看在你是中国人，我跟你说这些。”但也后悔和这些人废话，主要是自己知道他们找工作的心情，所以有些同情。Sorry, 你爱怎么就怎么吧，我不管了。

 

还有些40-50岁的中国人，明明英文不好，还挑肥拣瘦，什么housekeeping不做，只做customer service.Wosai!你做得了吗？和老外说两句，他们就会说，“Sorry, I can't understand ur chilly Englsih." 你以为你是谁，你以为你能做什么？有个中国女士，居然跟我说她在中国大学是当老师的，到这竟给她推荐体力活。或者有些人说，在中国如何如何，物质条件有多好，想吃什么吃什么，这什么都没有。我要说，谁让你来的？有人用枪逼你吗？既然来了，你什么都做不了，能怪澳洲政府吗？你应该感谢澳洲，人家能要你。你要不舒服，可以回家啊！

 

我不是对这些人有偏见，我也是中国人。我想说，其实大家受的苦是一样的，为什么要抱怨别人呢，要是我，只会觉得是自己能力不够才没有机会。我经常对自己说，“你有什么竞争力，英语还不如人家小学生，书念得不少，可实际工作经验，有么？多看看自己的不足，努力提高，少去抱怨别人或羡慕别人，路都是自己走出来的。”

 

加油！中国人！

 

 

Tomorrow will be our last free day without manager so its deserved to have a fling. Yeah! Our plan is to chip in to buy 2 boxes of pizza and get together at lunch time instead of haveing a lunch seperately. Don't say we are distracting from work we should devote all our energy on our work. Let me enumerate the reasons why we think we need to celebrate:

 

1. We won the Regional Competition and surely we had Ken and the Strathfield people eating our dust! ahha!

2. Our Sep status for the whole site is fantastic looking at the red and green dots on the white board. That means we might achieve our goal earlier.

3.at the Glenda little farewell bash, good feedback from her as a manager from headoffice is that our team is the best at our region. No matter what she said is flattery, at least we believe that ours is a grea team.

4. HB Jeremy is awarded with the most coveted top one job placement consultant in our company although this reputation should be contributed to all of us especially Elliot, Jeremy's assistant.

 

I am happy and proud of what we've got, but more important thing is we can give a execuse to do something relaxing. My heart has been going boom boom boom all afternoon.

“My Daddy was my hero-he was always there for me when I needed him. He listened to me and taught me so many things but most of all he was fun. I know that Daddy had an important job. He was working to change the world so everyone would love wildlife like he did. He built a hospital to help animals and he bought lots of land to give animals a safe place to live. He took me and my brother and my Mum with him all the time. We filmed together, caught crocodiles together and loved being in the bush together. I don’t want Daddy’s passion to ever end. I wan to help endangered wildlife just like he did. I have the best Daddy in the whole world and I will miss him every day. When I see a crocodile I will always think of him and I know that Daddy made this zoo so everyone could come and learn to love all the animals. Daddy made this place his whole life and now it’s our turn to help Daddy.” 

Standing before and image his father, eight-year-old Bindi Irwin yesterday led her family and the 300 million people who were watching Steve Irwin’s live-broadcast funeral across the world on mourning felt. Her tribute words got me shedding tears although I hadn’t known his crocodile-hunter Daddy before I came to Australia. Even her cranky Daddy behaviour caused some controversial comments on holding his little son Bob making a show in front of crocodile within 1meter.  R u shocked for that? Originally I held my breath and got crazy by what he was doing on the news, and then I searched what Steve Irwin had done including his contribution to wildlife animal. He was a hero for all of OZ kids and those children have learned how to protect wherever those lovely human being’s friends are and keep in mind on cherishing natural treasure on the earth. His death was the devastating loss of Australia even the entire world. Steve was Australian’s wildlife warrior and will be highly thought as a national hero forever.   

Bindi has in hesitated his father’s courage and intelligence and she will bravely face everything is going on. Good on u, Bindi! 

Anyway I admit I further love of nature and am being inspired to more pay attention to animals currently.

 

rWe just finished arrangement of interview about security guards with a security training academy and employer. U might say it's only an interview not worth much more concern. Yes, not too many people will care this sort of job, but we must organise it as good as possible and try to get oue clients to be successful although with a tiny hope. That's our goal to make our clients start working and meanwhile it's criteria to assess how well what we are doing by DEWR.  

 

Now I don't want to talk this job but would like to introduce something else. For this time, what we have done is to put the job description on the advertisement, call on suitable our client and arrange a meeting-roon for interview twice. All that we can do is  based on our good network of employers and clients. Yesterday ths first round interview was held at site manager's office and today we are going to move on next step. To mu suprise, all of interviewees are with formal suit and tie and they don't look like applying for security guard but for CEO. Whatever, don't see others with colourful glasses. Their talk sounds so comfortable and happy. One of clients, Chris speaks to me,'the interviewer is actually is a security guard but he looks so professional. They give me two-week to start this job and a package. They respect me, I respect them." Yeah, I care about u, u care about me.         

Bloody hell! What is the OZ Federal Government doing? Are they welcome new migrants or not? More and more serious migration policy will be published and it might affect those guys who are on the process of migration and some potential guys who are prepared for it.  

It's simply my main gripe at this moment. Actually I don't mind what English level might be required but I care how long I can get OZ citizen. The earlier I get, the earlier I can go to USA and Europe without so-much-complex process for visa application.

 OZ Federal Government released a discussion paper on a mandatory values and English test for all new citizens, with an emphasis on national symbols, the legal system and democratic institutions. 

Suggestions in the paper include:

1.Requiring applicants for citizenship to sign a pledge to Australia;

2.Requiring a higher level of English for citizens;

3.Increasing the requirement for permanent residents and possibly asking them to sign a commitment to Australia values

4.Making the test random, so prospective citizens cannot rote learn answers.

 New law would require potential citizens to be in Australia for four years before applying, including a compulsory nine months in the year before gaining citizenship. Migrants currently have to wait three years before applying. Should I be included in group for waiting 3 years? 

 

Damn it! It's crap.

I had a Taronga Zoo tour yesterday although going with bad luck morning. To catch up 10:20 train to city, I left around 10:00 but returning for fetching a bag of magazine and DVDS which are Ning's stuff then was asked by Phillip who would hold it when you were walking around the zoo. He was too right and I got to accept what he reminded. Get rid of it. Running to train station and praying not to miss the train, finally I got on the train. Gosh! Suddenly I found I hadn't taken my green travelpass left in my garment's pocket while I had thought I put it in my handbag but it's the one I bought for returning Sutherland on Fri. What could I do in case train police check ticket on this cage. I am going to hell at that moment. Should I return and let Phillip bring down ticket to Turrella station? I might get another idea to sout it out. Buying a new green travelpass at Central Station is a good idea at least it can save time. How could I say if I met police? Worrying worrying......God bless u! Luckily, I got to Central Station wondering how I could tell the whole story to rail staff at check-out. My goodness, I saw a get-through opening there then went through as quick as I can. I felt comfortable after I bought the ticket although I didn't want to be a ticket-escaper.

 

Of course I enjoyed my zoo tour with Ning who looked so excited seeing giant animals such as giraffe. We also saw bird show and seal show with lots of children and we applaused for spectacular show we'd never seen before. Cheery shrieks up and down! Michi, Tathra, Miya. they are seal not my friends, haha... Tathra is so cute and smart though she is 3 years old, she can whisper, applause, jump up from the water and other stunts. I was fascinated by her whatever her lovely looking and behaviour. There are other animals get me excited, such as local Eagle, African snake, OZ kangaroo, sun bear, four-generation chimpanzee, reptile, mammals and other many animals I couldn't call their name. I love them! As if I got back to my childhood when I stepped around the zoo.

 

I will be back, Taronga Zoo!

Hope not to drive u nuts seeing me get back my spaces and publish messy words. Don't doubt that I've got some mental problem or been obsessed with creating and adding my blog. I am not Xujinglei who is promoting and advertising herself  through increasing number of hits. The reason why I sink into my blog is that I am too bored sitting there like a door dog now. It's not sensible to get me in meditation, which might get me out of the way since I have been one that look at situation from the perspective of the glass is 'half empty' not thinking it will be 'half full'. For instance, looking at the lady client, I'd think what I will do if I like her age......Regarding it, I must shun any stare to avoid thinking something negatively. Crave for being with my colleagues at this stage and doing some prank before COB that my happiest time every working day and meanwhile learning some slangs such as 'diddle daddle' 'Cradle snatcher'.....I couldn't catch up on what they are saying forever.

 

I have to say Renee is a good girl who has said nothing knowing me that I hang out on internet the whole day. Likely she is grateful for what I have done at least picking up all incoming call and leaving necessary message for those guys who are on leave.  Renee is walking to me and informing me I can leave at 4:45 for catching the train if I want.

 

Okidoci!

I have been thinking I am a vulnerable and overworried girl so I am easy to be down by a four-season-weather day, loss of chance, misunderstanding of friends even treatment of disgusting clients. Lots of fears or worries bring me unhealthy mood, even break my normal life rhythm. Is that some sort of mental disorder or phobia? I have desired that the maturer I am the less symptom is.  But what I am waiting for hasn't come to me and more serious emotional uncontrol leads me to lower mood. Should I see psychologist? I believe any treatment won't play role on my body only my encouragement. Time might be a have-to but effective way for someone but not for me. 

 

Up up and away

 

  

Sitting at the reception at IPC Sutherland, I feel quite bored and get sucked. Most of staff except Renee who is definitely cool OZ girl with her so-short hair are on leave even bloody Michale is for his birthday celebration. No music, no lovely colleagues only my spaceweb companying with me, I've released my disappointment to Jen, Elliot they are keeping in Ashfield. The only one client Steven doing job-search looks so nice and friendly although I didn't understand his OZ greeting. His call for applying for job sounds so enthusiastic and he is trying to promote himslef for grabing a chance of interview. Lovely bloke!

 

Yesterday our handsome regional manager Michael aksed whether I'd like to take reception one day at Sutherland, without hesitation I gave him apparent response-certainly. No other answer I could get or no other choice I had at that moment. That's my boss and how could I say? Is there any employee could refuse requirement on working from ur boss? I had nothing to say when my colleagues teased that I was going to work with a big boss and got to say I am going to go with police. Right? From another angle, it should be great time to sit besides the executive officer. But the tiny expectation I had was broken hearing that Michael is enjoying his family time just like cold water is poured to me.

 

All right, stop beefing now and get back to what I should do. However what could I do now? Actually after a few foiled attempt to get me up, I am so depressed with such a quiet and cold room and really don't how I can kill my time at the rest. Give me some idea or suggestion,pls. Miss LOL at Ashfield.

 

 

'She's in a pain in the ass.' which is said by Max, not me after I told Max that one of his client looks difficult to treat. My goodness, I speak to Max I have learnt so much oral expression even dirty words. Probably, u get a question why we have got so many cranky clients. It's concerned with our responsibilities that we mainly assist those people who get payment from centrelink and have been LTU(long term unemployed) so Centerlink send them to us and let us provide help as requested. Can u imagine what characters they have and what education they have had if they live supported by government. Yeah! some of them are disability, some are PPS, some are mature age, or some are aboriginal. 

 

Occasioanlly I feel a bit sympathy for their circumstance but I have to urge them to seek job cuz that our job otherwise we will be got out of job network member, then I will be sacked. When some eldly clients who is over 60 years old come with trembling hands, I am a little bit moved by their spirit of endurance and thier desire of working somewhere. But not all of our clients are like them so much, 80 per cent client love staying at home and are indulged in using the money they get though it's not earned by themselves. Frankly speaking, I can't be able to agree to what they are doing. It will get me mental wreck more serious although now I have been an emotional cripple since I came here if I do nothing only being a desperate housewife because I'm despearte for being part of office ladies. 

 

Somehow, it's not necessary to get involved in others' private things, just do something u should do. Keep smiling to our clients whoever they are or whatever they do even they are rude and keep my personal philosophy that if u are good to people and treat them well, it should all come back as a positive. Anyway, I want to say I 've already conquered some bonkers guys  by my lovely smile.

   

Having a glimpse of Max sitting at Kitchen room and making his personal call, I get a good idea pop in my head that how I take use of my lunch time at this place. It's simply a heaven for me who is unlikely to access internet or make private thing at reception where is absolutely open area. HooooooRoooooooooo! Thank Kate for having telephone installed and putting an old desktop there. More thank Max for setting a radio companying with computer. Music, internet, phone with big table for scattering my stuff, magazine, cuppa, tucker...It's pretty good,hug?Oh my goodness, such a tiny thing gets me passion of flutter. Is that me? Unbelievable and incredible! Simple life, isn't it? I'd love nothing more than carefree life.

 

Please don't be cheated by what I am saying, I am still a littile bit in negative of my current life. Can't see my career future, own house and lots of stuff I really want to have, but I know how to keep things in perseption since I moved here and position myself rightly.

Since Kate left for her honeymoon, our office has been full of fun and LOL although we get to hide our fun a little when handsome Michael,our regional manager comes to looks around. When I slip of tongue with wrong oral expression in slang, my lovely colleagues would laugh at me without intending to hurt me, so I has made a lot of funny stories. Meanwhile I'd like to practise slangs I just learnt from time to time, unfortunately Robbie is supposed my Guinea Pig and has to try to guess what I am saying and tell me what situation I can use those slang or correct some words used actually that Ilearned from English textbook in China. GeeeeeeeeeeZ! How silly that I wasted so-long time in studying English by wrong education in china. It sounds too late to learn real English from start line now. What I can do or I can make use of is my current English environment, but I need to ignore any white laugh for imporving my pool English level. I more like a mountain hiker who is trudging up a steep incline and although I feel tired, I am reaching a new peak in my life. Currently it's vitally important to move on and keep my confidence.

 

During the time for achieving a new step in my English level, keep my optimistic as I can and seek joy from it. For example, Robbie let me use 'I cannot' instead of 'I can't' cuz normally 'I can't' is only used by the situation that female refuses her husband's special need. Now I get used to speaking 'nuts case' or 'fruit cake' when we get client who is bonkers or offers his or her rocker. Anyway, when paul forgot to tell me his mobile number to put in emergency contact list, I would say don't spill the beans. Seeing that I take our attendance sheet to let them sign, Max describe Nazi is craping the whip, a birthday bash, on board, chucked wobbly,Ahha....  Jeremy says,'Sally is more like local.'

 

Noooooooooo, that will be long way to speak like a local. Maybe I won't come this dream truth all my life and wish next generation to do it. Currently what I want is just enjoying learning a bit with fresh sense at working place so that release boring job. That's it.

 

 

Having a lood-looking, working at office well, doing chores fabulously, looking after kids carefully.... that's is what a good wife who is also both a office lady and a mum is supporsed to achieve. Is she a superwoman? Who knows? Somehow some males or most blokes want to marry such kind of female.

 

Unfortunately, warn those men that marrying a woman who is university, earns more than $50,000 a year and puts in a 35-hour plus working week is a fast track to divorce courts.  It's really hard find a career woman who is always at home with a smile on her face and a cool drink in her hands for her husband or partner when he return home from work each day. Probably, I am over-subjective but that's from my experience and what I have seen the stories happended on my friends. Actually this kind of men might get involved in other problems. More successful women is likely to be dissatisfied with their partners. So the males are seeking a perfect women as their wives while they might worry how they can handle their attractive wives to be taken by others who are more outstanding than those guys who consider themselves always right. Even men are fundamentally unhappy if their wives earn more than they do. Gee! Men are self-contradictory.

 

No wonder that there are brilliant women in the world who can be good wives, good mothers and career women as well. Their success is partly due to their willingness to work hard while simultaneously valuing their relationships with their partners. In other other words, they are able to strike the proper worl/life balance. I get to say one of my gal pal-Annie is a girl who can sort it out. She is farily freak but excellent in my friend loop. However I can't do like her although I admire what she is able to be, such as a good cooker, a positive-attitude girl and a fantastic English-speaker....countless characters she has

 

Don't be curious why I talk about this issue, because I have been embarrassed with this problem long time and don't know how to figure out when I am supposed to be a great wife. So huge pressure from around.

'Happy birthday!' 'happy birthday' ..... This morning, my colleagues still keep saying that although my this-year birthday was over. We like looking for different way to say hello every morning. Ha ha.... Ok, I will have a birthday month.

 

'Sally, what did u do last night?' 'What did ur husband give u?'...What a shame! I got nothing even heard particular words including such as' happy birthday to u'. My colleagues can't understand at all and they might guess whom I've been married with for 5 years. Is that a typical Chinese guy? Yes, that's my hubby who doesn't know how to create romance. he would say,' you are supposed to be a girl who prefers reality to romance so I more than care about what I can really bring to u.' My goodness. a male has opposite characters to a woman. When a woman speak to you that she doesn't mind something, you don't believe what she just say because it might be reversed meaning. In fact, all of girls like seeing and hearing that you express your feeling by a specific way. Anyway, I more and more make a conclusion that A female like to seek empathy or acknowledgement while a male like solution. ---The man from Mars, the woman from Venus. 

 

Don't get confused my narration and I am going to be back yesterday. On 31th Aug, there was a small celebration with my colleagues at Ashfield Hotel under Jeremy arrangement. I was grateful to Kate for her handover for this thing before going for her wedding occasion on 2th Sep.

 

At 12:00, we begun our lunch at first although the fee was out of shouting by bloody Justin working at headoffice. Everyone were craving for two-hour lunch more than cared about how much for the lunch because we only have one-hour lunch basically. No wonder that I made myself like a princess a day without worrying money so I ordered the most expensive main---Altantic Samon that I've never tried and the name got me a illusion that it should be beautiful and yummy. Unluckily, I forgot to take my 3G handset, otherwise I could take a pic so that put in my blog and let my family appreciate my special birthday lunch. My colleagues took their plates back to our table one by one. Yooooooooooo! the Greek main ordered by Monette looks so delicious and some curly sleeve-fish might be grilled with butter and scattered on plate. The unbelievable thing is that its only worth $10.5 but it looks the biggest on our table. I can't help eating it so let Monette give me a piece. No,nooooooo. what it tastes is not far like what it looks. So plain! 

 

Jen took a cheese cake with passionfruit flavor from Michiel Shop and got five pink candles decorated. It looks lovely and especially it is three years that I have not got such a round cake since I left Lenovo because every employee would have a birthday cake sharing with mates on birthday at that stage. Oh, this sort of thing got back. Hooray! Paul, Robbie, Max, Jeremy, Jen, Monette and Elliot sung birthday song to me. I felt so nice and happy. Frankly speaking, I would not feel so much if it happened in China, but it meant differently for me and I particularly cherished any wish from friends or blessing thing when I was a foreign country.