It drives me nuts physically today. If you see a cripple girl over there, it might be me, if you see a girl walk slowly and strangely, it might be me, if you see a girl with agony on her face when she is treading, it might be me. My thigh muscle is on fire when I am walking, that pain is really killing me to death. How does it come from? It is because of heavy climbing on weekend. I just spared no effort to climbing and climbing, ignoring any aftereffect could happen then, now I was hit. The muscle of thigh churns out violent pain if I slightly bend or move my legs, also bruise on left knee that was marked when I accidently bumped to the metal slack stairs annoys me as well... Haha, do I deserve to suffer it? The conflict between enthusiasm of climbing and its consequence has been brewing to the point where I should more concern. e.g. You would feel painful and uncomfortable when you are having thenar massage, but you could enjoy doubly comfortable after it, that kind pleasant sensation of whole body afterwards could make you not to refuse thenar massage again. I would say that is sort of irresistible bitterness sweet activity, so is gruelling climbing. Technically the muscle pain will disappear soon, then being cripple for a few days isn't a big deal, is it?

As scheduled, spending about 1.5 hours, we went to Wentworth Falls in Blue Mountains where offers spectacular bushwalks and sensational views. We started from Picnic Area that also provides fantastic lookout about Blue Mountains, then walked along the road to Wentworth Falls surrounded with a few travellers and climbers. As we reached the top of falls, I would say it wasn’t a good point to show how grand falls is because no seeing an entire picture. Next, we needed to step down to the foot of falls. For us as climbing lovers, it was really not a big job to finish especially climbing down not up, a piece of cake! …..Woooow! Raise you head, you can see a wonderful picture of falls that is so shiny in the sun when you are bottom of the falls. Snaping, snapping…I couldn’t help taking a few photos right away as I was obsessed with such a beautiful scene. Taking a deep breath, you would feel air is different to air in city, more refreshing, which could make you briefly shrug off all your distraught and feel revitalized.

Looking down from the foot of falls, we felt we were just halfway up the hill and didn’t know what it would look like downhill, so we decided to go down to see what it could be although there was no rugged road in front of us. BTW, you should know we are supposed adventurers in our mindJ. Gee! It was slack stairs we had to go, which was purely vertical. Undoubtedly, we didn’t stop but continue our road while there were less and less companies around, only some European climbers with us. Frankly, I didn’t refuse to admit that I was a bit scared whilst I got to keep my body erect to step down those slack stairs. After all, this sort of experience has been long time not to hit me. We couldn’t remember how many stairs like this kind we went through, finally challenge in front was that anyone is meant to go down by a rope’s help if wants to go on. Sorry, we gave up as we realised there would be more risky road ahead. Alright, returned and climbed up then. There is saying that it is easier to climb a mountain than to get down. I absolutely agree now. It seemed the speed of up was faster than down just now, so quickly we climbed back top of the falls.

On the way to the jumping-off place, we could hear our stomach rumbling, so we were extremely anxious to have our afternoon lunch that would be possibly arranged at Bon Ton cafe at Leura Town if we were lucky to have a seat. Fortunately, the restaurant didn’t make us disappointed and offered service to us ASAP with pasta and desserts we ordered, consequently we gobbled the foods as quick as possible to calm down our stomach’s protest against overdue filling, As full as a tick, then we didn’t miss out to visit gift shops in this small town and took a bag of stuff to get ready to be back Sydney.

Driving back to Sydney, we couldn’t conceal our enjoyment after an amazing Wentworth Falls trip, but we also couldn’t withstand fatigue struck us either. Hence we made a decision to have a simple dinner at 天仁名茶in Chatswood to end up our one-day trip.

It is month end again and date countdown already started up, our office has been bustling and everyone have been acting pretty much busy from this Wednesday, we need to have planned sales target achieved, otherwise we can't survive especially under such economic downturn. Some colleague came over to ask me the stock status, some one popped in to get shipment arrival date, some one called up to clarify models specification and difference, some one turned up to push me to do this and that, even some one asked some product while it has been phased out for ages.....OMG! don't rush me and keep clam down, pls. Everything will be OK as long as we take time to cope it one by one, not worth of being panic, and it is not the end of the world. More importantly, don't waste my time with those pointless questions. Anyhow, there are two working days to go for this month, hopefully, you won't fiddle anymore.

I have been a bit hush online or far away from internet browsing due to stressful work in the past days, feel tired and bored. For this point, there are something need to evoke my active nerve cell of doing something exciting to refresh my brain, well, then I will catch up with GF Saturday and go to Blue Mountain where I haven't been there for centuries. Remember last time I went to there was when I was studying at language school. The funny thing of that trip I still can bear in mind was we paid nothing for train because NSW government offered free train in NSW metropolitan area at that day to allegedly sort of make up for passengers’ inconvenience caused by train’s delay.

Plus I will go to shopping weekend as I am using shopping as a hobby so I do it a lot and I used to run out when I was stressed or very busy and make a quick purchase. It would give me a hit and make me feel good. I knew I had to cut down on my spending and I couldn't find anything to help me do that, so I started taking notes for myself. I think people shop because they're stressed, they don't have enough time to do a hobby, because they're bored and they've got nothing else to do and because they need to relieve themselves, such as ME.

Anything else can I do? Yeah, that is Chinese DVDs acted by Sun Hong Lei, just borrowed from Hebe who is Sun Hong Lei's big fan……actually I am fond of all movies or DVD acted by Mr. Sun and particularly attracted by his not-big but crafty and cunning eyes.

So life is shifted with your intended arrangement.

Saturday morning, I just finished reading book LARGER THAN LIFE written by Adele Parks and didn't feel crammed of her style book and couldn't help that tantalizing of immediately getting more her books with such ferocity. I truly love novel about family relation particularly shaky story turned from miserable to pleasant, more importantly I love her twist on mental description.

I was running out of reasons I shouldn't go to buy her other books, then I checked out list of books written by Adele Parks, there has been number 8 so far, e.g. Game Over, The other woman's shoes, Still thinking of you and etc. So with the purpose to buy those books, I dressed up and rushed to catch train to go to bookshop in city where I bought LARGER THAN LIFE. I straightforward went to counter when I arrived at book shop and asked the service assistant whether they had books after I passed on the list. Unluckily, the answer was that they didn't have them, Nuuuuuuup! My world crumbled. :-((. You know, I came to city from countryside to try to have these books, how could I accept this result? That female counter assistant didn't want to see me more upset and let me wait for a tick, then she searched system by other way....at length she told me they had a book---Tell Me Something also written by Adele Parks but not in the list I gave her. It doesn’t matter as long as it is hers book. You would see I'd flip when I heard it and you would understand flicker of surprise could make me dissolve with excitement if you had same experience before. I didn’t mind sacrificing my time and taking long way to come here but I hated nothing got. Getting where the book located from the chick, I walked to that book allocation section, finally found that book without much difficulty, quickly footed the bill and left the book shop with good mood. Subsequently I went to a Chinese book shop to buy a bunch of my most favourite Chinese magazine, Youth Digest that is definitely breath of fresh air to me. Literally, there is little room for doubt that I am a reading lover, huh? :-)

I have never been confident with my English even incredulous of my language ability except a point that I have relatively larger numbers of vocabulary to some Chinese. I never thought those words I have grasped would be not impervious to my English skill as I got to know a saying, you can speak English very well with 3,000 words if you know how to well organise them. Especially in front of Phil, I always bend myself for English because he had IELTS 7 (reading 8) that score I dreamed(if I got that score, I would go to that university; if I got that score, I would be able to do something I wanna do). I didn't think those bloody uncommon words I have kept in mind would be possible to help me in really normal life even though I was ironically called DICTIONARY by some Chinese friend because I knew too many obscure words but my writing result was not as high as theirs, however today I was thrilled as I intrinsically got benefit from it. This morning, on the phone I planned to make an appointment with a medical service for ultrasound. I never attempted to remember some medical terms so I was a bit worried that I could not fully understand if medical service mentioned some medical terms or some words about body parts before I dialed out. You know, for a pretty ordinary Chinese, they would barely touch those words in daily life unless they happen to get disease. Lucky me! I completely understood what the reception said to me how to get ready for ultrasound, such as bladder, pelvis.....those words I have been known for ages. You would be wondering how I know it. Haha! I have a weird head that always carelessly memorized some words whilst other Chinese wouldn’t like to remember by heart :-).See, it was out-of-the-blue surprise! So knowing some words not-always-used is not always that worth, is it?

Wow! I have to get IELTS 7 if I am eligible to attend that course at university. Jeez! My Chinese must be massively improved if I am confident to take that work.....so far, you might kind of get to what I am talking about. Since I accidently advised Penny to think about it as a part-time job when she is a housewife currently and her kids are gradually growing up, I have kept thinking why not I try it in case I could be unemployed one day, then I started hunting relevant information on webs, what type of approved courses by authority, what test should be attended, what requirement must have before go to test, what kind of job could be taken once get the certification......OMG! I fully realised it is fairly tough titties after I had tremendous search about it. Actually I was aware how difficult it is when I heard from Annie how much effort she made and how terribly it would be if failed some certain course. Apparently it does need not only good command of English, but also well master of Chinese. Frankly, I start to succumb a bit as I think it might be long way to go even highly likely to be ended halfway, more importantly I am less trust my English and Chinese skills. On side, English is not my first language, on the other side, my Chinese is flipping bad. Can you believe I would be capable of taking it as a person who failed in university entry Chinese test in China whilst it truly demands high-level ability of comprehension of Chinese?

You would think I am really an up-and-coming girl who dares to consider it and never stops setting up such a challengeable task and trying to achieve even though the age looks not youngJ. I don't genuinely look it as a must-be-done object but have generated more interest with it, simultaneously I am struck to hear that Elliot with that certification is freelance doing interrelated jobs in a free manner. Doing that work, you will own more free time to focus on family, you will probably get more chances to touch a variety of areas you are interested in, you will potentially more know essence and characters of language. Sounds like really enviable job, doesn’t it? Of course, there must be incredibly great endeavour behind a circle of glory halo. no hope, no progress. I don’t think I will authentically devote 100% energy to it but have first step kicked off, beginning to think whether I can do and where I can commence if I can….

That ain't not bad that I went back practise driving yesterday despite of a bunch of risks spawned in that 20 minutes, such as driving on the wrong way, not knowing how to operate screen wiper, giving a big turning to the opposite lane, breaking out tremendous screaming and yelling-out from Phil....but I am not beat down to try more practices.

It has been less than 10 times of driving practice as yet since I got green plate driver license. What a shame! To be honest, I have been neurotic when I think about driving. There would be something you can't get over that is implanted in your blood, driving is mine so far. I am barely scared of something except it. Although I am clearly aware it is not unsurmountable as far as I try to keep practising, there are still all kinds of excuses come up to my mind to avoid to drive once idea of going to drive occurs, e.g. raining day, not feeling well, without Phil to sit beside me....In a word, I am battling with endless self fear and massive nerve wrecking on driving. Sometimes I am curious why men usually are confident holding the steering wheel, but some women are not good at it. Is it true that someone was not born in driving? me is included…

Practice driving can go a long way for me, hopefully the stressful and stifling scowls would be less and less and more and more enjoyable face turns up when I am at the wheel.

The Thorn Birds has been my most favourite novel since I was in 10s and it is sole Chinese-version novel book I brought to Australia from China. The love to it has never gone or weakened. I would like to brush up it when I have restful time and get myself couched in the sofa at ease to enjoy it. Reopening the first page, being possessed by the no-result but yet clinging love between Meggie and Ralph, getting moved by harmony and happiness in Paddy’s family, seeing human being’s selfishness, greediness, viciousness……I admit I have a crush on it every time I read it and hardly put it down once hold it. Remember that I rushed to home after morning courses to catch up with 12:00PM radio broadcast novel when the fist time I touched this novel over 20 years ago, it was gratifying time of the day to have lunch accompanied with that radio program. Dad always dwelled on it was not good thing to listen to radio when I was in lunch because it was bad to my stomach, but his words was supposedly meaningless nagging in my mind at that time as I particularly felt like that novel so much. Since then, that book became a girl’s beautiful memory in adolescence.

Through review of this book now, I want to say, you would have refreshing understanding when you go over a book that you read long long time ago. Old book, new comprehension.  

Maybe you would think I am movieaholic if I tell you I went to see a movie NEW IN TOWN just now, which is the 3^rd movie I have seen within a few days. Today is premier day of the movie. A couple of weeks ago I already started to expect to watch it as I got to know it would be shown soon. It is about how a girl Lucy goes through the experiences from named ‘Monkey’ to ‘Queen’ by residents in a small town after she was dispatched to a plant located there to be in charge of a project to restructure the manufacturing plant. She has to suffer freezing weather, bad consequence of her unnecessary perseverance and smug action, and initial unacceptance by the local residents, but she eventually wins the trust and gets friendly friends through her a mountain of efforts on finding ways to save the plant when she’s forced to close down the plant and get the overall employees unemployed. It is purely common story could be seen everywhere. The factor that drove me to see the movie is related to the actor. Renee Zellweger is one of my favourite actresses. I have to say she is really good at comedy. I reckon you are mostly likely to find sparks as long as she appears in the movie. Trust me, it is not hard to have fun in the movie, so go for it.

I am thinking what movie will be my next one……BTW, who would like to tell me how I can get Greater Union Cinema discount voucher?  

I am not sure when I started relishing scented candles…..maybe can go back one time we went to house inspection at Strathfield, the tenants were a Korean lady and Indian guy, they put a few candles with funky candle holders in the bathroom, I could feel how balmy and charming it is, which doubly drove me to buy that house. But we didn’t buy due to problem of location and facing. Or tracing back to visiting Emily’s home last year, I was amazed when I walked into her bathroom by those flaunting candles. Does it allude that the house owners know how to create a love and warm atmosphere or their individual in-house decoration penchant? From then on, I had expected to have own candle sets at own place….. Actually I really like DUSK and purchased a XMAS gift for a colleague last year but didn't want to splurge on myself. (BTW, rational shopping is this year’s resolutionJ) Until last weekend, we accidently bought a couple of candle holders at Victoria Basement in QVB and got some vanilla scented candles at Ikea as well. I love that candle holder’s shape and colour, it looks impressive, calm and warm…... As we tried to burn it after got to home, we suddenly realised the stupid thing was that we didn’t have lighterJ. Today I couldn’t wait to ignite it until night shortly after I bought the lighter. See, it is working, it is delivering appealing information from GOD, it is creating cosy and relaxing ambience, its fragrance is evocating the endless love to the world, also its scent is conjuring up those the most distant memories…..hopefully it could bring me more peace of mind, serenity…..

This week I am on annual leave, so what I have done until now as it is the 3rd day.

SHOES REPAIRED: I have several shoes are well but heels tips got worn, I tried to buy some one new but haven’t found one with good quality and price, more importantly, there is no my style. Then I decided to have old shoes repaired. Guess what? I googled shoes repairers in Hornsby but couldn’t find a shoes repairer. Either the shops have been closed, or I couldn’t find the address shown up in the web, hence I had to go to Burwood Westfield to have a pair of shoe’s heel tips replaced. Maybe you would say, it doesn’t worth such long way to do it. Now I have but someone doesn't have, that’s TIME, so I don't mind using 2 hour on itJ. Gosh! It needed to cost me $15 when I took own shoe tips just had them replaced, however it spent only extra $3 if I bought new heel tips and repairer would help me fit on. OMG! Manual work fee is really killing me in Australia. Okay, I chose the latter idea. At least I don’t need to buy a new one which might cost me $120-$150, and on the way back home, I made a decision to take the other old pairs to have heel tips replacement because repairing fee is far less than the value of new one, huh? Well, I finally found Mister Minit shoe repair in Hornsby Westfield, oooh yeah! I won’t spend more time and money to go to Burwood.

CLEAN TEETH: To take advantage of annual leave this week, I have managed to do something I can't have time to do as I work, such as cleaning teeth. Before I go, I have a thing to be cleared. My health private insurance provider has been changed from Mendibank to HCF, I am not sure how much I can claim for cleaning teeth. I know Mendibank is 100% at my dentist as I did last year but I heard HCF couldn't make 100% claim. Firstly, I found the number of dentist saved in my mobile contact list to rang up (attention it), and was told HCF membership couldn't’ claim 100%, the gap would probably be $18 but depends on. Why do I spend $18? Give up! Secondly, I tried to call up HCF dental centre as there is supposed not to bill me. HCF dental centre in city told me the earliest appointment I could make is 8th April. My lord, a month to go. NO! Alright, dialed HCF Chatswood dental centre, Jesus Christ! No answer only music on the phone, I had to leave voice message after I waited for a few minutes. An hour later, I got ring back and was advised the earliest time is 19^th March, well, let me think about it. To be honest, I wanted to make appointment this week as I am free. Since that, why care about that $18 if I can close it this week? Then I redialled my dentist (the number I just called) and luckily the next morning 10:00AM is available. Lock it. The next morning, I merrily went to see dentist as I imagined the good feeling after cleaned up the teeth. When I got to dental clinic, the reception had no my appointment record at all. I can’t believe it. What happened? The receptionist asked me which number I dialled, ********,she said that’s not their number. Also this week days they have got fully booked in. What the hell did I do? Where is the number I dialed coming from? ……Leaving the dental clinic, I must find what the number I dialed is. Ooooh, it is Hurstiville dental centre, but I don’t wanna go although on the other end of line strongly invited me to come…..Maybe I will try the dentist at Campise that Emily recommended …..

SHOPPING: To steer myself away from the dangers of overspending, I told myself not to go shopping this week. But I really needed to release my stranded after failed to clean teeth, then with Lucia’s company, we headed to some Korean boutiques located in city where I expected to dig out some fancy stuff. You know, many girls are handful when they get involved in mountains of clothes hung up over there. I am no exception. Wooow, how beautiful it is!....wow!, it is on sale!......Not surprisingly, I rushingly dismissed more than $200 within half an hour and had to leave to catch up with the movie. I can’t imagine what will happen if we stay there longer. But I would say retail therapy did work out, which made me temporally forget recent embarrassment and hassle.

SEE MOVIE: Lucia and I went to see movie---Hes just not that into you. The reason why I went for it, I was not attracted by movie’s theme, but a string of famous actors and actresses. sexy Scarlett Johansson, lovely Drew Barrymore, Handsome Bradly Cooper, charming Ben Affleck….the film follows several relationships, each one has their stories. A girl of a couple is desperately looking forward to stepping on marital relation but her partner doesn’t believe marriage; a husband has family affair as he has fallen in love with a sexy girl, after his wife’s finding that her hubby flirtation with another girl, he was dumped; a girl enormously makes dates and always mistakingly thinks those men are interested in her, afterwards she got disappointed one by one. With the help of a male friend, she gradually walks out of paranoid but she starts thinking her friend is interested in her…..these stories are common and typical nowadays, kind of reflecting current real love and twist love.

Look, its my annual leave……I am thinking about what I am going to do in the next days……