Basically I am not supposed to be a book worm, however I like being obsessed in some sorts of book that drives me to head for positive direction or gets me think over something happend on me or is going on certain stage of my life. Some fellows advice me not to be over sensitive or influenced by tiny thing it is not valuable to spend too much time thinking. Ha ha.....it has been part of my bread, unconsciously I would have reflection on something that mostly ignored by other guys. So I should go on my study to DOCTOR degree, otherwise its a shame to let my good or bad thinking pass by or disappear after a while. What do you call this symptom? ---INTERNAL DIALOGUE.

 

Actually there are thousands of internal dialogue since you get up every single day. You are making a decision whether still lie in the bed or open a book beside you......I don't want to stay this kind of daily dialogue but move on deeper conversation. Everyboday has a self-concept-a bundle of beliefs, facts, and  opinions about themselves-that is created by external and internal factors. External factors are the events and experiences that influence you from the outside. Your external factors are from your history and you can't change it. For example, you're fired from your job. What is your responese that is determined by your internal factors. one of your reaction might be: I hate being fired but I did good job and I am a talented person. My boss just turns his blind eyes. It will work out. I could cultivate learning experience from it.  On the other hand, your action could be: I am such a loser.....When you are negative, you are making a huge mistake. What come from....your internal dialogue or self-cognition. We'd better look at the world in perception. Unfortunately our perceptual filters can be highly sensitive to negatives. Its human nature.

 

What suggestion we can take? There is no doubt to be positive but realistic. Positive internal dialogue is not just a kind of good feeling. Its rationally optimistic self-talk, not hype or exaggerating. Its truthful with the world. When you pick something up in your life, you don't say, I am good enough as I am. Probably you're not good enough. So healthy internal dialogue helps you do something about it. ...How you can achieve it? change, practice, examine constantly.....

 

To be honest, all that I am speaking sounds empty and is easier to say than do. I have been changing myself for ages.....

 

Don't ask me why I become thinking-lover. I have to say I have nothing to do now but think, think, think.......

 

Thank Reader's Digest

At a family, it sounds fair doing housework for a couple that BF or husband wash dishes while GF or housewife completes dinner. That's different role playing and presenting to equality. When an individual is doing his or her jobs, she/he is supposed to be happy and should think its a common domestic distribution, huh? If you have a tiff only for that, you are wasting time but lots of couples are quarreling just for feeling unfair housework or complaining of unperfect accomplishment to partner. So ridiculous when a little tiff leads to a cold war, but reality is that.

 

At the moment, a female has to back off. Why? no reason!!!!!! You are educated unless you want to give up sth looks very important in ur life. All right. What your suggestion or tips for that? Me......housework is good exercise and a positive way to keep figure. As long as you're on your feet and moving, you're putting years in the bank. You don't have to power walk or do a step class. And actually that burns up energy, even housework, adds extra years to your life.  The more physically active you are, the longer you're likely to live, and it doesn't matter what activity you do. Washing clothes or dishes, cooking meal, chopping carrot, cutting cucumber, vacuuming, dusting......Moderate activity can reduce risk of heart attack, parkinsonism, or other popular disease. Fair enough?

 

Anyway, its fantastic to crank up music while you work to get yourself moving and motivated.  Now let's do it. You will find something you never experience.

The key for people who are going through something serious is to have something look forward to. Haha.... I become such a philosophy girl. Life is teaching me to take it easy and get me blossom after experiencing something I've never met or thought I am not likely to come across. However, it happened and is sucking my life. Its impossible to run away or pretend to be blind cuz it exists beside you. Be brave and strong to face everything. I think some terrible experience leaves you living more in the moment, with a stronger sense of your identity.

From this Monday I have been training of our new receptionist, Alina who was burn Poland and has been here 15 years before that there was no English background at all. As a trainer in the past , I've known 100 per cent how hard this job is and I was fully prepared for the training. However, its beyond that I thought even gets me nuts. Guess what? She doesn't have any computer knowledge including how to start computer. Im curious how Kate let her go through in the interview probably just for improving our performance by increasing number of referring to jobseeker successfully cuz Alian used to be our client. Can u imagine what she can do if she doesn't have any skill of computer? No ability to send email, no sense to EA3000, no response to basic computer language.......it sucks me.

 

OKAY, just reckon it as a challenge or a sort of experience meanwhile look at other's merits more not keeping eyes on, its higher level of human recongniton and positive with my current jobs.

My best gal pal using 'attitute is everything' as her blog name, she has been in heavy stress with her bloody training project. Trying to get her calm dowm and relax by my previous ecperience or some empathy words, I have to say that everyone has to be sunk in his or her plight at times if sh/he live this world. Its not goddamned but just a sort of life both tears of joy and sobs of despair.  Its good thing to enjoy happiness. What we can do if we are being pushed past our limit and out of our comfort zone or ? There is nothing more better way than to smile at it although its easier said than done. Be proactive and think of different ways to turn those nagetives into positives. Remember there are probably plenty of people in life worse off than you. Fair enoguh.

 

Don't think I am a thorough opitimistic girl. Just sort of. What I normally do or suggest to deal with stess is to burn off some of that stress in a gym session or by playing a sport- or simply taking a health-giving, stress-busting walk instead of charring your scalp.  Another way I might do is to take a lucky charm by my own made-up magic or superstitions to wish it could bring me turning, such as wearing something lucky, having a lucky charm or going somewhere special. I believe in that such magic can work by declease anxiety or pressure and hope to keep me in optimum sense.  Anyway, don't lose my lucky gonk, lucky undies. Haha....Despite that I don't have any religion, I believe in Buddha and pray it to help me exclude any unfortunate something happened, is happening or would happen in the future. 

 

God bless with anybody.

During this lunch time, we have a comment on relation between sex and marriage. Actually this content would get talker in flurry or go blushing or it's shamefull to commence this sort of topic, but we freely have a quarrel about that. I absolutely agree with that if you have good sex life, your marriage will be lasted, which is said on SUNRISE on CHANNEL 7. So does Monette. Then Jeremy and Monette continue talking about which one is more important between love and sex. Hearing their talking, I feel it looks like which came first, the chicker or the egg. Jeremy insist on love is priority for marriage and sex is also necessary, while Monetter stands firm on her opinion that sex plays the most role in marriage. For Jeremy, to keep long-term relation is based on love, at the meantime, sex is good catalyst to inspire and sparkle their relationship. Without love, without sex.  Monette more focuses what role sex plays in marriage. In fact, they are both right without contradiction but seeing from different angle. I don't want to get in the middle of it. Suit yourselves.

 

Its time to go home, Im ready to go. I will be back this topic as long as I have time

 

 

Two minutes ago I got 90 per cent my colleagues in embarrassment just for a word used in job description. What's that? Spruiker!!!What does it mean? I had tried to look it up from English-Chinese dictionary on web, but failed to get anything, then I asked my blokes at office. Finally Jeremy got it.  Its said especially of showmen, salesmen, etc. speak in public, especially at lenght and using ornate language. Simply to say, if you are walking on the street, probably someone taking a pile of advertisement leaflet for getting you interested in their product or something like that. Make sense? Its old English language and OZ slang and not spoke widely, I guess. So I admit it will be long way to be a thorough girl with enough OZ culture knowledge. It's realistic.

 

My sister always lets me pass on OZ slang to her as much as possible once I am likely to meet because she is Englsih teacher at college and wants to learn more authentic English from me not beyond my ability. Dear, my lovely sister, Im trying to share with you without any conservation. But Im not sure what I provide to you is what you really need purposely. Now Im going to give you another example, POM---prisoner of motherland, which means she/he came from England. Im grateful for Maureen who is a POM and taught me. Why we call it? Because about at 18 centuries, English sent prisoner to Down Under(Australia) where was undeveloped and only aboriginal inhabitant were at that time, after that this piece of earth begun to be known by more and more people at nothern hemisphere. Sorry, sister, what I have learnt is not exact what you can use at work, basically it might raise your word accumulation, right?

 

 Anyway, I will tell you some bad words usually described for our cranky clients, such as cranker, bonker, silly duffer, twat, drongo,  moron....you should be extra careful using them because they would get you in trouble if you unintentionally speak out in front of your clients or students. Why I got so many words like that? Sometimes I rapidly reach the end of patience when talking with clients who offer their rocker going with strong stink. At that moment, I was just like innocent sucker how much I want to turn my back on them. See, what the hell I have to provide assistant to such sort of clients and it also implies my job is not easy to take. LOL

 

 

This is our email talk about uniform got yesterday after we tried on. I don't want to tailor any words from my colleagues and hope to present original saying that are more interesting to get me laugh out loud even couldn't straight my waist. 

 

 

 

 

What's happening on my web space or my laptop? I have spent entire morning trying to upload photos taken during the Jervis Bay tour. On screen, its shown to install the Window Live Photo Upload Control prior to add any pictures, then I do it but nothing happens and I get to close the page and press icon 'add an album' again and hope to see something different come across. But it keeps the same. Try, fail, try, fail....Jeez! It sucks. I flew into rage and my patience has gone.Despite of not being an IT expert, basically I have enough computer knowledge accumulated at the time working at Lenovo to use computer well or fix some tiny computer problem myself. What a shame I couldn't sort it out now. Li ran who used to work Lenovo would tease me again for my employment history at biggest computer manufacturer in China. He always laughed at my question about computer if I asked him and let me not admit that I was his colleagues. Definitely, my skill on computer gets me blush. All right, I don't know how much I was influenced by what I saw and heard at Lenovo. Okay, it's beyond redemption.

 

What the hell I couldn't share those photos with my family or friends. Its too late to pick up a book to read up. Looking at those photos, I have tears of joy for awesome time and sobs of despair for not showing off and leave them aside. Wish miracle happen someday. God bless me.

There are about 300 staff in our company but at most 5 from China or Hong Kong, meanwhile some of them are ABC--- Australia born Chinese. Its lucky that I have Penny who also came fron China mainland. I guess there is no more one Chinese girl at IPC. Today Penny, her husband-to-be, Chris and me have a lunch at Vietnamese restaurant, KING at Strathfield, for her coming wedding this Sunday. The first time I saw Chris although heard some stories about him. Wowwwwwwwwwwwww! He is tall at least up to 1.90m with clean face. To be frank, he looks more handsome than his picture and he is very kind and well-educated not like some OZ males doing something unfriendly.

 

They give me a surprise at the time of lunch that Penny has been two-month pregnancy. According to the local culture, if u were pregnant, u wouln't tell others until u could be sure the baby inside is growing well because it is high possibility to have risk happened on the baby at the first three months. In case something bad happens on the baby when she/he is very little, you can do abortion behind closed doors. So u'd better be particularly careful to leak it out despite that u r very delightful. This sort of manner is supposed to be encouraged to lessen disability birth rate as much as possible. Is that different to Chinese custom, hug? I go in for it. 

 

Currently, poor Penny has been in normal gravid discomfort---morning sickness, but she can get used to it and more focus on her baby growing. Wish she have a wonderful wedding and enjoy her pregnant time.

I have been so desired to talk about our Jervis Bay trip but hardly found time to look back this long weekend passed by. It's usually busy for us from Mon to Wed, consecutive incoming call, clients who want to register and including some drongo freaks to deal with. No time to have cuppa or go to toilet. Its lucky that my kidney is going well.

 

I should return to the point. That was not perfect but unforgettable trip with good arrangement under beautiful Michelle. So firstly I need to thank Michelle and Jason for their fabulous plan and frequent contact for those activities. Why not perfect? We went fishiing but lost fish rod handle, we went to see whale but watched dolphin, we rode horse but somebody couldn't stand up during horse trotting and got serious hipache. What happened?

 

The first day our group of 8 guys driving 2 cars started off around 8:20 from where I live after get-together. Led by modern technique GPS, we headed for Southern Sydney just along famous Princess Highway. We should be grateful for Jason's expense on GPS with more than $400 value. About midday we went to destination with empty stomach and strong appetite. Unloading and putting down our luggage, we were shocked by shabby appearance of two-floor house but comfortable furniture with woody decoration inside. I can't say that is very new but tidy and clean. It's enough for two-day and two-night accommodation. After that, we begun our BBQ mainly cooked by those boys while girls just sitting at table and enjoying yummy foods. (I shot many pics unfortunately can't upload on my web). Simply cleaned leftover on the table, we prepared for next important activity---fishing. Why I say that? Basically none of us know how to thread the main line between reel and hook, how to wrap the tag around both the returning tagk ang how to close the knot using gentle pressure on the tag. Definitely it's not handy for our blokes and got us in trouble. Although all of us has master degree here, no one could figure it out. Finally we had to end it without endurance and rushed to beach to try out our work.  Anyway,  what we wanted was to enjoy the process not how perfect the result was, right? Poor Phillip dropped off reel handle and Wei Feng, him and me returned and tracked to hope to find it in sunset. No doubt that nothing we got. Funny thing was we got lost and drove to somewhere we didn't know at all directed by GPS. Was that GPS's fault? I only think the map saved in GPS hasn't been updated,hug?

 

The second morning we rode horse one hour and everyone looked like a knight on the horse. To me. at the beginning I felt a bit nervous and persisted in walking although others left and troted. The trainer and I rode up and down on the hill and got through hurst. After 20 mins tense feeling had gone and I sit on the horse freely and knew how to control my horse--- Trinket. She stopped when I dragged the bridle rein and kept walking if I loosed bridle rein. I believed she already got usd to my smell and built good affection. Haha... she is not doggy.

 

The afternoon we took cruise around one and a half hour to inside sea for seeing whale. It's so heavy sea wind that I had to run away from top floor of cruise quickly and hided at the bottom floor, actually most of passengers would like stand on the top board to bathe sunshine and breathe sea wind but we couldn't sustain fierce blowing. Suddenly, someone shouted, "dolphin, dolphin.." Yeah, that's it. Not far away, there are several dolphin jump up and down water, so we can glimpse them at times.

 

Whatever, we experienced things new accompanied with unpredictable things happened just like add some savour in our foods, fair enough?

 

Now I get to put down my pen because Monette has a twat client who stole her wallet during their interview talk. Shit! I am becoming more and more experienced since I begun to work here. Police will be coming.....

 

 

 

To be frank, Im not certain that is good for me hearing that my job is going to be changed to Service Administrator with higher duties, especially when I am trying my best to hunt a job in Import & Export area that is my ideal or favourite field. Destiny always plays with me and let me head for the direction actually where is not what I really want or expect. Nothing I can say only get to see how far I will go along this way. Sometimes not very caring about your goal so so-called ideal, it would help you live freely and relaxedly even might bring you surprise. But I am a kind of weird freak that like chasing something I can't touch or hard to achieve and enjoy the process of conquering or struggling. Unbelievable!

 

For some of my friends, they think I should be satisfied with what I have had, such as a permanent job, loving hubby. Oh, noooo, I have to get back my work and continue this topic in case I get time.